2/12/09

I can't help but wonder when it's going to be my time to be happy. With everything thats been going on in my life it feels like it won't be any time soon.. I think I've been to concerned about whats going on with Billy and I that I forget to live everyday. It sucks that he's away and I can't get over that but I also need to learn to just live... If its supposed to happen it will one day. I hope it does because I honestly can't see myself without him. I look around and see all my friends happy with their boyfriends and I wonder what my future is going to be like. I can see myself moving to South Carolina but yet I don't want to leave my family... Do I move for love or do I stay and always wonder what would have happened?